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Thursday, April 15, 2010
It's been some time :) Hihihihi! :D Thank goodness it's 4 minutes to midnight! So that I can blog and wish Meixuan Happy Birthday! Hahahah :D Anw, just reached home not long ago. Yeap, I know it's late. But will be sleeping after finishing this blog post (: So, went back to school ytd after being absent for 2 days, which is on Tuesday and Wednesday. Kind of lost during lesson... So During Math, Mr J Teo gave the whole class an "Inspirational/Motivational Talk" for about 35 or 40 mins? Yeah, that long. Can't really rmb what he said. But it seriously made me damn motivated to study again! :D After his talk, I really listened damn attentively in class, did all given assignments and just take notes for the lessons throughout the day! :) Except for MT, slept for 2 periods through. So after school, stayed back in school to do homework while waiting for the time to go for Chinese tuition. Been 3 weeks = 7 lessons since I last went. And I have to pay for tuition fee. How great z.z It was pouring heavily after tuition, somehow was kind of drenched. Bused to Bedok inter. Waited for Qingliang the slowpoke to come. He really damn slowpoke lor! Say 3 more bus stop gonna reach, in the end took 15 minutes -.-" Then, took bus to Marine Parade Library and he taught me poa! Didn't really learn much cause was somehow stoning :P But he's really a funny guy!!! gosh, almost typed guy as gay -.-" So anw, after that, walked to ECB Burger King, and had dinner. Chatted till about 10, and took a stroll along the beach and went home after that. He walked me home though, such a gentleman :) Throughout the whole time spent with him, there was never one moment that was without laughter. Hanging out with him is really fun :) Laughed alot like crazy and did alot of silly tihngs ESPECIALLY ME!!!!! z.z Oh well, at least I had a fun time. It's been long since I laughed so heartily. Alrights, it's getting late. Will try to post more! Tata |
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Thursday, April 8, 2010
The Glory unfold! Together we've brought another victory! THIS IS DEFINITELY SOOOOOO GONNA BE A HAPPY POSTTTT!!!!!!! There's practically sooooooooooooo many things to be happy abouttt!!!!! Gosh!!! Can't stop smiling each time I think about it!!! I think from the picture, you people can roughly guess what is it about! YESSSSS!!! It's SYF Central Judging for Concert Band today!!! Went to support MBS in the afternoon! Didn't manage to wake up to support Bendemeer Pri though :/ So went to MBS in the afternoon, helped them, and went to SCH tgt with them. Went into the hall earlier cause was afraid that we couldn't get any seats. so watched a few bands performed. Gosh, my whole hand practically turn ice-cold even before MBS came out to play for their turn. Was sooooo nervous for them. Even after Yishun played, my hand was still freezing ~.~ So waited nervously for the results to be announced. NERVOUS + NERVOUS TTMMMMMM!!!! 1st happy thing : BENDEMEER PRI SCH BAND GET GOLD WITH HONOURSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!! HISTORY HAD BEEN MADE BY MR QUEKKKKK!!!!!!!! 2nd happy thing : MBS CONCERT BAND GET GOLD WITH HONOURS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPPYYYYYYYYYYY TTTTTTTTTTTTMMMMMMMMM :D :D :D 3rd Happy thing : Both Mr Quek's Band had been selected for SYF Presentation/Opening Ceremony!!!!! AIN'T ALL THESE TOTALLY AMAZING?!?!? IT WAS LIKE A DREAM COME TRUE FOR EVERYONEEE!!!! OH MY!!!! I'm seriously gonna cry now the moment I thought of this 3 things!!! Ohyeah, talking about which, I had a deja-vu of Bendemeer Pri Sch getting Gold w Honour though. It's REALLY REALLY SCARRYYYY T.T Just that morning that I didn't want to support bendemeer, I dreamt that in the afternoon at about 1+pm, I called Cheng to ask about the result for the morning session. Ok, in that dream, I thought like morning session's band result will be announced in the afternoon and the afternoon session the evening. So yah, as I was saying, I called cheng to ask her about the results. She told me this(in a monotonous voice) " Hmmm ..... Well .... They didn't do very well, but get gold with honours" & My reply to her was " YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! " & When I woke up, I was like, "WOW, Okay .... Relax, chill ....." So in the end when the results for BPS came out, I was like " GOD! It's effing Deja-vu :O " But anw, was really really happy for everyone especially Mr Quek. So after the results were announced, I went over with the kids to congratulate them!!! They were like soooooo happy! But they told me that I seem happier than the kids are! HAHAHAHAH!! Which is true I would say! Heheheheh :D && They will all be getting Ice-cream from Shannon and I. When I say all, it means the whole band! What I felt the most heart-warming is that, when I saw Mrs Lim(MBS Principal), we hugged each other so tightly like some mad woman cause we were really really happpy and sooooo proud of the kids! It was like "WOW!!!". You know that kind of feeling? So one of the parent asked her who was I, why were we hugging so tightly. And, she said this "She is my daughter." How sweet of her right? Goshh ..... Aites, skipping that. So I was like crazily cheering and screaming at the top of my voice and the whole band just cheered along with me :D Then soon, we went back to school and everyone was so worn out. So they went home early. BOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!! No 3 cheeers for them!!!! :( And we went home too as well :) It IS indeed a happy post right?!?!?!??! Goshhhhh!!!! I can feel the joyyyyy!!!! UP TILL NOWWW!!!!!!!!!!!! Love all my juniors sooo sooo much! Hahah, alrights, I shall end here. I'm getting tired! Tata |
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Flashbacks of the past, There's nth I can do to change.. I know I know, it's late and I should be asleep by now. But seriously, I think my life is damn screwed up now. Gah, I'm just not disciplined enough. I'll try to change, hopefully, hmmm =/ Anyway, was just looking at my previous blogs post. Felt a nostalgia for the past. As I read some of the post, I realised that there are a lot of sad posts. About quarrel with friends, being back stabbed, friends distancing from each other, family problems, and all sorts of things. 4 years have passed in a blink of an eye. From the childish 13 yr old girl who used to type like this "Whad thhe hell? Why is it always mee?? I hatee euU!" to a 16 yr old who's time in due of taking N level. GONE WERE THE DAYS MAN! Ok lah, I still do type short forms and some words that are not in the dictionary. Then, as I continued reading from the super old post to the newer post, say .... 2 years ago? I realised I'd lost many friends of whom are real close to me. Like justin, we used to talk on the phone every night(yes, it's REALLY EVERY night). We talked like there's never ending topic to talk about(though I can't really rmb what we talked abt :P). Soon later, we fell for each other, but I was attached that time. After I was single, we didn't talk much(idk why ._.) I think he fell for a girl or smth, so I told him that I really missed him a lot and missed the times where we would just chat like there's no tmr. And how I was the one the he'd turned to when he's down and vice versa. So, we got tgt, but things didn't work out well between us, and we broke up. From then on, our lifes were changed and we no longer are the same as before. All that I just said happened from July'07(when we first met) till Nov'08(when we broke up). Was just thinking, if we were never together, we would probably still be best friends till now. But oh well... He'd moved on in life with his girlfriend and so am I. Anw, found this from one of my old blog post.
To Goondu : Sweet much? Ohwell, that's all in the past. Alright, shan't say further or I'd be weeping like a crybaby T.T I'm just kidding! :D Just don't want to have sad post. I wanna have more happy post! :D I'm born to be happy and a bubbly person! Nothing can take me down right? :) Alrights, shall get going, it's getting late.Hopefully my next post will be a happy one :) Tata! |
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Monday, April 5, 2010
Sleepless Nights, When things start to change .... Yupp, my title says it all. Was lying on bed but couldn't sleep. So was thinking about how life had been all this years. Gah, don't know how to say in words, feel a bit tongue-tied. Mehh, I'm hungry! Ok, that was random x.x It was this one thing that led me thinking about my life. This thursday is Mbs Band's SYF. So as usual, Cheng and I thought of skipping school that day to help out mbs for the whole day. Just as I wanted to skip school to help, I realised the number of times I've missed school. Up to date in 4 months, I was absent for about 9 times? Imagine if I skipped school this thursday, it will be the 10th time. Plus that day I have chinese tuition at 4.30pm when Mbs Syf starts at 4.15pm. Crap much? I told myself that I cannot skip school anymore. I seriously have a lot to catch up in lesson. Chemistry, Physics, Geog, Ss, Math ... I know studies are important to us, but Mbs is equally important. I've been skipping so many Chinese tuitions. Out of 8 lesson, I think I only went 3 times. I've been missing school and skipping tuitions so many times that I'm no longer interested to study. I wasn't as motivated to study as last time. I would always excel in Math. but now, everything is just in a mess. I'm starting to lose faith in everything. In studies, friendship, him, family. Everything, just everything. Things happened that just change me for what I am now. I don't know what to do. Am I suppose to blame my parent for what they'd done? Am I suppose to blame my friends for the quarrel? Or am I suppose to blame myself for letting all this these obstacles in life affect me so much? I really don't seee a point in studying so hard, in maintaining this friendship and with him, in supporting my dad for that bitch. When I cared for ppl around me so much, what did I get back in the end? I will be the one who's gonna suffer the most. I'm there for them when friendship goes wrong, when family needs someone to be their hope. But who will be there for me when things start to crumble down like now? I don't see that I have something to hold on to, or something/someone to look forward for, to keep me going on in life. When the last glimmer of hope had started to fade off slowly. Yes, I know he's always here for me in my heart though he can't physically. But what I need is assurance from you. That when I'm really down, I can look for you, and embrace in your arms to cry, and tell me that everything will be alright. You don't understand how it feels to have a broken family, to live in a broken home. What more you don't understand is not having your mum by your side and when your dad having girlfriends like he don't even care anything. Living with a dad who don't even think about your feeling. I know you have things that I don't understand about. Just take that I'm selfish and don't understand how you feel. I'm sorry but I'm really breaking down ... All these things are too much for me to handle. |
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Sunday, April 4, 2010
New blog for good :) Decided to make my blog open to everyone again. Well .... I still have my private blog though. So yeah, here will be my daily(hopefully) rantings about school, life, band, tuitions, piano lessons, exams, test, N LEVELS! family, friends .... Hmm, probably not family & friends, that will be in my private blog. So yeap, hopefully *cross fingers*, I will be able to update as much as possible to let you people know about what is happening in my life! But I think my posts will bored you ppl out cause its all words!!! But well, I will try to take photos and post it up!(that's provided that blogger don't and won't be an ass that day when I upload those photos!) Anw, went out with Cheng, Benedict, Clarence and Fouzan ytd to Vivo City! Wanted to watch Clash of the Titans/How to train ur dragon. But Cheng and I was late because of me, I took very long time to get myself prepared. So we ended up watching When in Rome. Quite a nice movie, many funny parts too. So before and after the movie, the 4 of them played at the playground? open space? Ah, whatever, u know what I mean. Took a lot of photos. All up on facebook :) Stayed till 10 and went home. Suddenly felt that this wall between Ben and I just came down. We hardly even talk in class/school. Hmm .... Ah well, shall end here. Tata! |
